you <s>are</s> were my deepest desire.

Thursday, March 08, 2007

For you, I will cry black tears.
2:08 am

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

Suddenly feel the urge to blog. haha. went to SP last Fri. Wat a pity not to have met Azmi and Mizan when they were like so near...haha...anyways, the trip there to Capellini's was a worthwhile one....opened up my eyes abit more bigger...haha...

At 3, had a presentation back in school...aagh.."jet-lag"..haha...travelled from Dover to Bedok..... Had work at Bugis at 5.30..block bookin...saw a long lost friend, Renny...haha...glad she was there..if not sure boring..humph..wat am I DOING STILL IN MOVIEBITES!!!

It was a tiring day....travelled alot...and i ended my day by meeting up with Ain and gang...long time no see ma...haha....

For you, I will cry black tears.
1:55 pm

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

I have been a real good girl this semester...taking 7 freaking subjects...ontop of internship!and a MAJOR project!!!aargh!!

But its pretty cool cos we are designing for ndp fun pack!!!
hee....

its been pretty crazy surviving school these past 5 weeks...time really flies...and i've become a totally mundane person....with no fun..

feel pretty bad as im neglecting my frens...cheesh!

maybe im jz trying to get some awful "incidents"out of my mind...so im like working doubly hard to keep all those treacherous feelings at bay....

away.....

Please.....!...stay away!

i jz wanna live!!!

til e next time, guys!

For you, I will cry black tears.
9:51 am

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

hmmm...its finally the end of my third semester. Results are out and i failed a subject for the first time...hmm, quite impressive right? haha...jz tryin to comfort myself here...

Well, i have received my supplementary paper for the failed! subject(P1)...cheesh...and im given only two weeks to redo the major project from scratch...(was given 1 bloody semester to do it on 1st attempt)

im feeling low at the moment.although i know that i have practically no time! to do so now...due to having to chaotically rush up my major project in 2 bloody weeks!!
that's cossssss.......................................................................................

I AM IN LOVE!!!!!!

Shit la!!!! this is so not supposed to happen!But as a fren said, feelings cant be helped wat? i have fallen so hard, so fast this time..this feeling sucks cos its making me feel sick! which i already am cos after having my wisdom tooth plucked!...im now having a sore throat and a runny nose...not forgetting the numb and sore feeling on my "bogeh" bloody big gap on my red and swollen gum...and it really doesn't help that on top of all the discomfort that im feeling, my left cheek has to be bigger than my right one! aargh.. i feel like crying! like a baby..(like the way i did during the last few weeks before semester end on my fren's shoulder due to uncontainable stress and pressure and depression)

You know i really miss my best friend from school, Emily Phua!!!!!Aiyo!...was so sad when i found out that she actually thought that abstaining herself from me during the crucial last weeks of school was wat i wanted!! My dear...u are so wrong i needed u to keep me sane le...i was going bonkers at that point of time...i have never felt that kind of insurmountable pressure and stress in my "cute" life before...9although i have to admit i look scary to approach at he first place)wahahaha!!!.....Well wat do u expect?no sleep for so many days in a row, working non-stop at the computer,working shifts at Lido and practically left incharge at Beach Road on some days! with my swollen eyes stinging so bad and a damn stiff neck!hahaha...but lookin back now that im calmer and happier, it all seem so funny!!

kkk...back to my love story.......hee...well, I will never ever reveal who that guy(its really a guy this time!!!haha) is...only those selected few of u know la...and im also confused over my feelings with another guy who i did a survey with at Orchard road the other day , as he called me up to tell me that he would like to meet me pertaining to some of his work stuff...but procrastination got the best of me as i stood him up for two days in a row...Ouch right guys?....Surprisingly, he msg me and seem to be happy about it, teling me he is not angry wit me and wat not...and ashed me to be frens!!!????hahaha....weird right...I gotta confess that this guy has got kind of a hold on me.........every night by the end of a day, i find myself thinking of him and the other guy alot!!!Damn!!!!!....SHooT!!!!fADZLIN, wAT HAVE U DONE???????!!!!!!

For you, I will cry black tears.
3:57 pm

Friday, August 26, 2005

I Miss You- Incubus

To see you when I wake up
Is a gift I didn't think could be real
To know that you feel the same as I do
Is a three-fold utopian dream

You do something to me that I can't explain
So would I be out of line if I said
I miss you?

I see your picture
I smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine
You have only been gone ten days
But already I'm wasting away
I know I'll see you again
Whether far or soon
But I need you to know that I care
And I miss you

Aww....Isn't that song sweet?haha..the first verse was dedicated to me from someone. Someone who has now turned to be a friend for good...hee..well there's is jz 2 more freaking weeks to school...inclusive of all presentation dates...Man i cant wait til 8th september!My last presentation date!...Phew...wat a relief it would be once tats over...and i will be left with jz 3 more semesters to go!And helLO! world....ha!!

For you, I will cry black tears.
9:29 am

Monday, August 22, 2005

i feel so bored.
confused.
hurt.

Last wednesday at work was the most boring shift i ever worked everrr!!arrgh!!!feel like punchin out sia..and go home to do my work..but lucky for sweet Yanty...kept me company for sometime...if not i reaaly go biol se..haha

i thought of taking a break from work this week but the excess amount of free time is already startin to drive me nuts!haha.

Yesterday night i worked at beach road (Prince) with a new girl Rofidah.She is supposed to be a lido staff but up til now, she worked for a month already, she only work at lido once....haiz...talk about irony..doesn't tell u alot about how superb the office girls at Shaw are?...tsk..tsk..haha

So she and I talked about lots of stuff, we talk about school, movies, love...tak de keje pe...haha
And she commented about certain stuff about love that really set me thinking...It was refreshing, and kinda made me change my perception on love, and finding the right one.

the right one.

Ya.easier said than done.u noe there is this person who touched my heart.

u noe, really touch my heart.

touched deep and tenderly.

i feel so touched.

but i am unsure.

i dun really noe about wat.
is it my ex?....blwek!,

my philosophy in life?....i dun noe i need somebody to give me a direction!!!

ya...lookin on the brighter side of things, i "reunited" with my old dear friend from pri school!hahaz...i was so happy to bump into her tat day..she grew taller, i feel so short beside her...haha...watever!

Life goes on.....:)

For you, I will cry black tears.
1:16 pm

Friday, August 12, 2005

its been so long since i updated my blog...kinda miss it..so now im back..haha..tat sounded lame..well,lots of things have happened, to me as well as the people all around me..some good ans some pretty bad...sigh...i dun really know what to say...i mean...wat e FUCK do u expect me to say?? im really stressed out now...but looking on the brighter side of things..its almost the end of the semester!!!haahaa...3 weeks to go...now im practically crazy...all my friends keep asking me why am i looking the way i do?wat a question se....im jz so tired...jz wish tat i could lay down and rest in peace...

i feel like im more distanced from my frens now, be it from sch or work...i dun noe wat is happening to me..i hope this weird feeling would go away!!maybe its due to the insurmountable amount of stress im under now...hopefully NOT DEPRESSION!!!!sigh....

"Bad Day"

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on
You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lieYou work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

im so in love with this song.....

For you, I will cry black tears.
3:39 pm

~ 17/07/2005~

You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,'
Cause I'll never be with you.

i got to know someone....on this day...

For you, I will cry black tears.
3:27 pm