I wish I could tell you how much
I wanted to hold you in my arms.
But I guess you'll never know,
and I'll just try to forget
I was once in love with you.
the girl inside
her life
talk to her
say hi - to her friends
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farewell
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Wednesday, September 28, 2005
hmmm...its finally the end of my third semester. Results are out and i failed a subject for the first time...hmm, quite impressive right? haha...jz tryin to comfort myself here...Well, i have received my supplementary paper for the failed! subject(P1)...cheesh...and im given only two weeks to redo the major project from scratch...(was given 1 bloody semester to do it on 1st attempt)im feeling low at the moment.although i know that i have practically no time! to do so now...due to having to chaotically rush up my major project in 2 bloody weeks!!that's cossssss.......................................................................................I AM IN LOVE!!!!!!Shit la!!!! this is so not supposed to happen!But as a fren said, feelings cant be helped wat? i have fallen so hard, so fast this time..this feeling sucks cos its making me feel sick! which i already am cos after having my wisdom tooth plucked!...im now having a sore throat and a runny nose...not forgetting the numb and sore feeling on my "bogeh" bloody big gap on my red and swollen gum...and it really doesn't help that on top of all the discomfort that im feeling, my left cheek has to be bigger than my right one! aargh.. i feel like crying! like a baby..(like the way i did during the last few weeks before semester end on my fren's shoulder due to uncontainable stress and pressure and depression)You know i really miss my best friend from school, Emily Phua!!!!!Aiyo!...was so sad when i found out that she actually thought that abstaining herself from me during the crucial last weeks of school was wat i wanted!! My dear...u are so wrong i needed u to keep me sane le...i was going bonkers at that point of time...i have never felt that kind of insurmountable pressure and stress in my "cute" life before...9although i have to admit i look scary to approach at he first place)wahahaha!!!.....Well wat do u expect?no sleep for so many days in a row, working non-stop at the computer,working shifts at Lido and practically left incharge at Beach Road on some days! with my swollen eyes stinging so bad and a damn stiff neck!hahaha...but lookin back now that im calmer and happier, it all seem so funny!!kkk...back to my love story.......hee...well, I will never ever reveal who that guy(its really a guy this time!!!haha) is...only those selected few of u know la...and im also confused over my feelings with another guy who i did a survey with at Orchard road the other day , as he called me up to tell me that he would like to meet me pertaining to some of his work stuff...but procrastination got the best of me as i stood him up for two days in a row...Ouch right guys?....Surprisingly, he msg me and seem to be happy about it, teling me he is not angry wit me and wat not...and ashed me to be frens!!!????hahaha....weird right...I gotta confess that this guy has got kind of a hold on me.........every night by the end of a day, i find myself thinking of him and the other guy alot!!!Damn!!!!!....SHooT!!!!fADZLIN, wAT HAVE U DONE???????!!!!!!Â
For you, I will cry black tears.
3:57 pm
Me.
My name.
My age.
etc.
I'm not the person you thought I was.
I never was.
I never will be.
Sorry for letting you down.
But you'll never know me.
And you'll never know my deepest darkest desires.
